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It was raining as I walked to my new bus stop this morning and I took a few pictures of the puddles. I took one I felt came out particularly well with the two leaves touching near the edge of a thin puddle.

do you see the world like I do?

I’m still feeling very sad but I don’t think bordering on depressed just yet. I feel so isolated from everyone, like I’m inside my head and my eyes are windows that are shut but transparent. I hate this and I don’t know what to do. It helps to write it all down right? I think so. Hoping one day I can read this and laugh at my silly feelings. We’ll see. Still, I’m happy I can look in the puddle and see the sky.

I guess it’s time to dust off my blog and start writing again. I’m hoping I can write a post each day but we’ll see how it goes. I’m divorced now and recently moved in with my family. It has been… interesting. It is frustrating to live with people who question your every move. I already failed at life, I know; I’ve accepted it and am moving on with my life and my children’s lives. But do I really need to rush in head first into another decision that could end up worst?

See, my parents want me to buy a house. Now. Today! ACT FAST! I am on one income and have two children. Is it really wise for me to buy property and have a mortgage on one income with two children? Because if it is, I don’t see it.

In related news, living with my parents will put a hamper on my attempts at dating. I’m planning to attend SAIC in Spring of 2011 for a certification program in Photography. It’s something I should have studied a very long time ago. Anyway, perhaps that would be a way to get out and meet new people. Meanwhile my loneliness is my shadow.

Here’s a photo I took this morning using my myTouch 4G:

follow the power lines down

So I had this great dream that I was taking a gift wrapping class and the teacher was my old Art teacher from high school. The first assignment was to wrap a gift using only supplies purchase at Walgreen’s which I felt was a great way to push the students to be creative and think on their feet.

Our teacher then took the class to a Walgreen’s and had everyone buy supplies while she stood watch near the registers. I remember one of the classmates buying a can of Campbell’s ravioli or some such thing. He bought it because the ravioli was filled with beets and he was going to use that to color something.

I remember buying graphing paper, black shoe polish and poster board. My idea was to cut out a stencil from the poster board then use the shoe polish to stain the design onto the graphing paper. It was around this time that I woke up. I really wish I could have seen the project done.

Current Mood: Sad

I had a dream that I was having lunch in a high rise building with a great view of the city. Sitting at a long table with me was Alec Baldwin, Chandler from Friends, my sister and one of my cousins. Alec was teaching Chandler how to dance then he was going to ask me to dance. But suddenly people started running out of the room. I looked out the windows and was shocked to see the buildings in the city were smoking! There were these great large black plumes of smoke coming from every other building and I could see Lake Michigan in the distance with the sun close to setting. I remember thinking the sunset looked beautiful. That’s all I remember from my dream.

Current Mood: Silly

Ok, this is a wierd one. I was trying to discover why Adobe Dreamweaver CS3 was crashing and I couldn’t figure it out. After some googling, I found the Dreamweaver CS3 Read Me (pdf) file which states on page four:

Known Issue: Crash in Windows when CSS file size is exactly 8192 bytes, 16383 bytes, or specific larger sizes Dreamweaver crashes in Windows if you make an edit to a CSS file that changes the size of the file to exactly 8191 bytes or an increment of 8191 bytes. In addition, Dreamweaver won’t restart unless you change the size of the CSS file. To change the file size, open the CSS file in another text editor and insert a character or two, including whitespace characters such as spaces and tabs.

Adobe

Now, isn’t that the oddest thing you’ve ever heard? This is exactly what happened to me and I had to open my stylesheet in WordPad and add some comment lines to bring up the file size. Too weird.