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my fears

completely valid, though irrational they may be

At night, when I sleep alone when Tino works 2nd shift I usually fall asleep with the lamp on. Why? Because I’m afraid of the dark. I really, seriously think that the demon-possessed Regan open link in new window is hiding in the dark and about to jump on me from behind. :twisted:

Now since I am an adult I know in my mind that this is not true. However, try telling that to the part of my mind that lets my fears get the best of me. Lately though I have left the speakers open link in new window on so that the little blue light can be my nightlight. Here’s the confusing part, I have to sleep with a sleeping mask on so that means I need complete darkness to sleep. Wierd huh?

Posted on: May 31, 2005 at 1:19 pm
Filed under: thoughts


comments (4)

  • http://every-passing-moment.blogspot.com/ lorena

    hey girl, that is crazy but then you are a pisces and we are so contrasty like that :) it’s all in the mind.

  • http://blog.zoblue.com blue

    oh YEAH! Forgot about that bit. :razz: Well that settles it then. It’s ok to be afraid of the dark… and of insects… and of dead people… and of ghosts… and of heights. I think that’s it. :wink:

  • http://www.neelsen.blogspot.com neel

    i have had a lot of difficulty sleeping all of my life. i recently underwent a sleep study that confirmed i had sleep apnea, but i also suffer from insomnia.

    i would recommend that you have a sleep study or at least speak to a sleep specialist who can prescribe something for you. something like lorazepam may help take away that anxiety associated with the dark. also some counciling may help.

    by the way, i love your blog, and my name in Benglai means blue.

  • http://blog.zoblue.com blue

    Thanks for the advice Neel, I’ll take that into consideration. :smile: I see myself as a bit of a night owl, I can stay up all night and sleep all day. But you can get much more done during the day. Plus civilization rules during the day. :razz:

    Lorazepam? Will research. Right now I’m on Claritin for my allergies and that seems to knock me out pretty good. But might have to cut that because of trying to get pregnant.

    Thanks for loving my blog! My nickname is blue, my real name (Zulema) means peace.